fear descends

deafening the voice of reason

desperation mounts

and I choke for a moment on the possibility

of more losses

but I have given up so much already

what more is there to lose?

into this place

I welcome your spirit, O God

into this bewildered space

I fall between

what is and what may be

threatened by the hit to my security once more

into this place

with open hands I yield to a silent God

who up to now has faithfully given me all that I need

whose movement rustles beneath the din of worry

you are there

and I am because you have remained